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Writer's pictureKrystal Diel

Day 61 - Thinking of self-promotion has me tail spinning

Updated: May 17

April 29th, 2024


I did not realize that I have not written in 3 days. 


What was I doing friday that I completely forgot to write?


The weekends are usually pretty busy with my children at home so I am not surprised if I miss a day on the weekend on accident.


Well it’s Monday. 


Last week we left off with me having the realization that I have to promote myself and that has been my biggest sticking point thus far. 


I realize that I am not alone in it. I found a short book from the library about a woman who was dealing with her own struggles with promoting herself. The way she describes how she felt, is exactly how I feel. The interesting thing is that she wrote this book over 20 years ago. 


While I’m not completely surprised that a person such as myself could feel what someone else felt 20 years ago, it makes me feel so much better and that I am not so alone. That if she can overcome it, so can I. 


Overall I have been in such a funk for the last 4 weeks. I mean since the girls spring break, then Josh getting bad news from work. I just have not been able to pull myself together. I’m tired. I feel anxious. I feel depressed. Not anything that I was hoping i’d feel when I set off on this new adventure. 


I feel the pressure to get a new job, and yet I’m still on the journey to build my Teddi Kathleen Brand. 


I also suppose that there isn’t even a need for it. I could be just spinning my wheels on an idea of something that no one will want to buy anyway. So maybe a form of self promotion is to just get a bunch of feedback. 


See if what I am doing is viable. Before I continue to pour myself into it, and to not worry if people will like it or not, I can ask for feedback. 


This whole self promotion thing has been tail spinning me like crazy. At some point, I get to say enough is enough. Take control back. Stand in my power again. 


I feel like I’ve given all my power away. Away to the circumstances around me. 


Going through it, I can see that it is just part of my journey. 


Who am I committed to being?

CEO of my company

Healthy 

Vibrant


Self-Promotion - Personal Brand 


What is my personal brand? What do I stand for? How do I market myself? How can I use my skills to help us make $100,000 a year? 


I mean, this really is my year of practice. 


Practice self-promotion and build my personal brand. 


What Do I want to be known for?


Is there a job for me out there that allows me to foster my skills? 


I just feel stuck, I still don’t know where to channel my energy. 


Finding a job.


Learning how to promote myself.


It always comes back to the “can I do both?”


I just spent the last two hours looking for jobs. I just feel so defeated. The weight of all the question marks around me is so heavy. 


Am I just applying for jobs because its easier than working on promoting myself? 


I feel like I have no energy to do anything. I didn’t sleep well last night, yet I dont want to take a nap because I’d like to sleep well tonight. 


I don’t really feel like working out. 


I’m lacking direction which is causing me to lack energy.


I don’t know where to focus my energy. 


I decided to apply to several recruiting agencies, because applying for jobs on my own isn't working. 


The idea of having to learn all of this on my own is exhausting. 


I just wish I could get some answers.


I just wish I could just get myself to practice self promotion.


When will I be ready? I know I wont feel ready, I just have to get out and do it. 


I just still feel stuck….


When will this end?






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