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Writer's pictureKrystal Diel

Day 57 - I can choose which thoughts I listen to

April 16th, 2024




Why do some people, like me, have the mindset of I can’t do this, I’m not good enough, why even bother.


And then some other people just seem to have the mind set of they don’t care. I see people out there who seem like they are just so free and light. 


I mean, I get it, it is social media, and people share what they want to. They may seem like they are free and light, but it’s likely they are battling with their own thoughts as well.


I saw an image the other day that said, “even the most positive people have negative thoughts, they just don’t listen to them.”


I have a lot of “thought work” I get to do. To further break the generational patterns that have existed in my family for a long time. 


Either way, I’m just feeling the weight of my negative thoughts, I almost feel like an imposture to think about positive things right now. 


So I can either let the negative thoughts take over and win, or I can practice the shift, just like I teach others to do. 


Yesterday, I had the huge ah-ha moment that I am in a place where I get to promote myself. Promoting myself, putting myself out there, is extremely challenging. Which is why it’s the huge obstacle that stands between me and me living the life of my dreams. 


Having a thriving business, and/or career where I stand firmly in my own confidence, bold and strong amidst the craziest of storms. 


If I’m afraid to put myself out there, then I will always stay right where I am. Surrounded by what seem like insurmountable walls. 


Surrounded as well by other people who freely and “easily” promote themselves. 


I can spend time learning how to promote myself, or I can just get out there and practice it myself. 


I keep gearing up, and stopping myself. 


The very thing that I am so passionate about, teaching people to quiet their inner critic, to have the confidence to take action.  Is the very thing stopping me from taking action! 


Ugh! It’s exhausting.


It’s like, if I just get cozy, warm, after I take a shower, after i go work out, after I clean the house, after I take a nap, then i’ll be ready, but actually, go get some caffeine so that I can have enough energy to do this….



And what I'm realizing is how much energy I’ve spent on this post. I just need to take action…. 


Ugh! Why is this so difficult? 


I keep looking outside for external validation, or something….


I know how powerful I am, I know I can do this. 


That feeling in the pit of my stomach, the one where the feelings of “I'm not enough, and I don’t belong” live, is ever present. 


I just wish I could fast forward to the next 5 years. A place where I am successful. I pushed through all this BS, took action, and things just started happening. 


But you know what? Because of the work I’ve done to this point has gotten me here.


Had I not first started writing books, publishing them on Amazon, going through the branding exercise. I wouldn't be here at this point where I am ready to promote my books. 


I think that I was putting a lot of pressure on myself to advertise my books early on, and I wasn’t quite ready yet. 


I’m being hard on myself  because I had the intention to advertise and promote, which I was doing, on pinterest, and on facebook a little bit, and on tik tok, and on clapper, 


So I need to let go of that narrative. I’ve been promoting, I’ve been putting it out there! 


Now I am starting to be more proactive with my approach. I’ve already gotten some proof of concept, sold a few copies and have great reviews!! 


That is a huge win! 


So how about we stop being hard on our self and just take some action already! 




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